Happy Birthday Skye!

When I first had my daughter, people were always telling me..."cherish these moments, they go by fast!"They weren't kidding either. As I look back at all that has happened during my baby girl's first year, all I can really say is Thank you, Lord! I am so grateful that the Lord has had His hand over her to protect her. Every month I would look back and compare how much my little baby has grown. It really does tickle me at the changes she has gone through physically in such a little bit of time. I think it is crazy that I have so many memories of her already...the first time I held her in my arms..., the first time I saw her smile, ...the first time I heard her say Mama...(sigh)...I've taken as many pictures as I could, almost everyday. I just want to remember these moments forever.





I think about my job as a mom and wonder if my mother thought of these things. She was great at being a mom and I appreciate her so much for all she has done for me and my family. She and my daddy sacrificed a lot just so we would be ok. I was looking at some old photos of me and my siblings with my parents growing up. I can't believe how quickly the years go by! I remember the trips to the park and the many different places we lived and how much fun me and my siblings had together. I really miss those times...





Skye really amazes me. Every day she does something that makes me smile..and it makes her smile too! Sometimes I think that she isn't aware of her ability to do things and it shocks her that she can do them, like open doors or scream. (lol) she also likes to take things apart like the remote control or try to put things together like the buckles on her car seat and high chair. She does a lot of these things with very little effort as if to say that they aren't as challenging as they would be for most people...lol..did I mention that she makes me laugh?

I took my little baby to the hospital for x-rays on her ribs. Remember last year when she had MSRA? Well, her pediatrician wanted to have another x-ray to make sure that she is still doing fine. Even though I won't find out her results until Monday, I already know that my baby is healed! I
 know that the Lord has blessed her with a healthy body and there is no need for me or her to ever worry about that again.She didn't want to be there at the x-ray room and refused to lie down on the table. She cried even though I was holding her hand. I suppose it wasn't enough for her, she wanted OUT...it didn't take but a few minutes, but it was long enough for her.I think she remembers where she was and wanted to go home.

I am so thankful that God specializes in healing. I would be so lost if it hadn't been for His steady and calm hand. When you call on the name of Jesus, expect results! I cry every time I think about what I have gone through and how God walked with me the entire way. I have no doubt that He will always honor His promise and take care of my little baby.Before I gave birth to her, I prayed that she would grow to love God...that her heart will be filled with love and compassion...and that she will always trust in the Lord. I also asked for her protection throughout her life and that no matter what came her way, He would take care of her. I know that He heard my prayers and it gives me so much comfort knowing that when I finally gave birth to my precious little girl, she was in His hands.

This past year has been filled with so many great memories that I will always treasure. I am thankful that the Lord has blessed me with the opportunity to raise my daughter and teach her how great our Heavenly Father is. I know my mom would be proud that I came back home to where I once was when I first asked Him into my life. I still have my ways at times, but I am thankful that He forgives me and allows me to try again. 

Today is my precious angel's birthday. I can't believe this day is finally here. I pray the Lord blesses you with many more healthy and prosperous years to come. Seek the His face constantly and you will never have to worry about a thing. I love you and I look forward to our journey together.  You have made me so happy little one and I proud to be your mom. Happy birthday Skye!!!!

Just Go For It!

Well, everyone...I'm back again. I decided to update everyone on my progress with the Daniel Fast. My time is almost up and I have done my best in keeping up with all that I am suppose to do. Some days I didn't do my devotionals, but I tried to make sure that I at least prayed. I sometimes felt like I was cheating myself when I did that. During this journey I have been working on some of my goals that I had made for the year. I have to say that it is a slow journey and I am not going to stop until I get there. I have cut out the sweets and wheat out of my diet for this period. It has been a little difficult because I have run out of ideas on what to eat...but I still pushed through. I began working out to try to meet another one of my goals. I've been waking up at 4 a.m. to get to the gym by 5. My days are so busy and I find that this is the perfect time to go.

Since I started doing these things, I have noticed a few changes in my life. Things aren't looking the same. I look around me and my circle of people I am around seems to keep getting smaller. The funny thing is that for some reason, I don't mind. I feel that there is a reason for everything and God has a better plan for me that doesn't require an entourage. I feel lighter, if that makes any sense. I don't feel so stressed out about appearances or feel that I'm in a competition anymore. I know that I want something better and for me to do that, I have to do things different than I did before. My drive is my hunger for a life that desires to be a more faithful servant to the Lord and to seek His face first. I don't want to do anything without Him in it. I want to be someone He can count on.

I'm looking at this year as a chance to do better for myself , my daughter, my fiance, and my family. I am striving to go beyond the comfort zone and push myself to do more than what I am use to. I am beginning to love myself again. I know it is strange to say, but for awhile I didn't even like myself. All I did was beat myself down like I didn't deserve anything good. I had to forgive me so that I can move on. Life has its ups and downs and you just have to keep getting up. I just read in my devotional that, " it isn't over until God says so, and He hasn't." I know that life can be really dark sometimes. You can't always see where you are going, but someone once said that," if you can't see His hand, trust His heart." I know that God has a plan for everyone. You just have seek Him first and He will show you the way...Thanks for reading everyone. May the Lord keep you in His keeping and may His face shine upon you in all that you do...

My New Year Goals

 Happy New Year everyone! It is finally out with 2012 and in with 2013! Last night I took my little Skye to watch the fireworks at her Dad's friends house. Her face was filled with awe as she saw each firecracker set off into the sky and explode. I loved seeing that. I have always enjoyed watching fireworks. I look forward to it whenever the appropriate holiday is here. Before the midnight came, I decided to write my goals down. I tried to remember the one I had made for the year before and it is so sad that I couldn't think of what it was...that was the whole reason for making only one. I wanted it to be remembered throughout the year so that I could work on it...but whatever...Anyways, I came up with 10.

I'm sure that if I see them everyday, I will be able to work on them throughout the year...I won't bore you with all ten of them. I just wanted to share two. The first one is to make sure I pay my tithes, no matter what! I have seen the blessings when it came to my being obedient to God's word. I want to always have that. Not only for the blessings, but because I want to be obedient. My mother use to say to me that "obedience is better than sacrifice," I never understood what that meant until recently. She really was a good teacher...but that's what I have decided to do.

The second goal I want to share is that I want to speak kind and encouraging words to people. Those who knew the old me, knew that I can be a pretty mean and spiteful...sometimes on purpose. My form of apologizing was that maybe you shouldn't have provoked me to be so mean...I know, that is not an apology but I never liked to say I'm wrong. Thank God for His grace! I don't want to be that person anymore. I want it to be obvious that I am saved. I want to use my words to encourage and uplift. I know it will take some time because this didn't happen overnight. I will do my best and with God's help I know I can accomplish all my goals so long as I put Him first.

I also decided to participate with other members of my church in the Daniel Fast...I figure since I don't eat meat and can't stand wheat, I can sacrifice the sweets...for 21 days! Lord, help me... lol...I know I can do it. I'm actually looking forward to doing this. I will keep you all posted on how well I am doing ( or not doing). I wish you all a prosperous New Year! May the Lord keep you and bless you throughout the year and that all your endeavors be successful. Until next time peoples...

I just want all I do to glorify Him