Just Go For It!

Well, everyone...I'm back again. I decided to update everyone on my progress with the Daniel Fast. My time is almost up and I have done my best in keeping up with all that I am suppose to do. Some days I didn't do my devotionals, but I tried to make sure that I at least prayed. I sometimes felt like I was cheating myself when I did that. During this journey I have been working on some of my goals that I had made for the year. I have to say that it is a slow journey and I am not going to stop until I get there. I have cut out the sweets and wheat out of my diet for this period. It has been a little difficult because I have run out of ideas on what to eat...but I still pushed through. I began working out to try to meet another one of my goals. I've been waking up at 4 a.m. to get to the gym by 5. My days are so busy and I find that this is the perfect time to go.

Since I started doing these things, I have noticed a few changes in my life. Things aren't looking the same. I look around me and my circle of people I am around seems to keep getting smaller. The funny thing is that for some reason, I don't mind. I feel that there is a reason for everything and God has a better plan for me that doesn't require an entourage. I feel lighter, if that makes any sense. I don't feel so stressed out about appearances or feel that I'm in a competition anymore. I know that I want something better and for me to do that, I have to do things different than I did before. My drive is my hunger for a life that desires to be a more faithful servant to the Lord and to seek His face first. I don't want to do anything without Him in it. I want to be someone He can count on.

I'm looking at this year as a chance to do better for myself , my daughter, my fiance, and my family. I am striving to go beyond the comfort zone and push myself to do more than what I am use to. I am beginning to love myself again. I know it is strange to say, but for awhile I didn't even like myself. All I did was beat myself down like I didn't deserve anything good. I had to forgive me so that I can move on. Life has its ups and downs and you just have to keep getting up. I just read in my devotional that, " it isn't over until God says so, and He hasn't." I know that life can be really dark sometimes. You can't always see where you are going, but someone once said that," if you can't see His hand, trust His heart." I know that God has a plan for everyone. You just have seek Him first and He will show you the way...Thanks for reading everyone. May the Lord keep you in His keeping and may His face shine upon you in all that you do...

My New Year Goals

 Happy New Year everyone! It is finally out with 2012 and in with 2013! Last night I took my little Skye to watch the fireworks at her Dad's friends house. Her face was filled with awe as she saw each firecracker set off into the sky and explode. I loved seeing that. I have always enjoyed watching fireworks. I look forward to it whenever the appropriate holiday is here. Before the midnight came, I decided to write my goals down. I tried to remember the one I had made for the year before and it is so sad that I couldn't think of what it was...that was the whole reason for making only one. I wanted it to be remembered throughout the year so that I could work on it...but whatever...Anyways, I came up with 10.

I'm sure that if I see them everyday, I will be able to work on them throughout the year...I won't bore you with all ten of them. I just wanted to share two. The first one is to make sure I pay my tithes, no matter what! I have seen the blessings when it came to my being obedient to God's word. I want to always have that. Not only for the blessings, but because I want to be obedient. My mother use to say to me that "obedience is better than sacrifice," I never understood what that meant until recently. She really was a good teacher...but that's what I have decided to do.

The second goal I want to share is that I want to speak kind and encouraging words to people. Those who knew the old me, knew that I can be a pretty mean and spiteful...sometimes on purpose. My form of apologizing was that maybe you shouldn't have provoked me to be so mean...I know, that is not an apology but I never liked to say I'm wrong. Thank God for His grace! I don't want to be that person anymore. I want it to be obvious that I am saved. I want to use my words to encourage and uplift. I know it will take some time because this didn't happen overnight. I will do my best and with God's help I know I can accomplish all my goals so long as I put Him first.

I also decided to participate with other members of my church in the Daniel Fast...I figure since I don't eat meat and can't stand wheat, I can sacrifice the sweets...for 21 days! Lord, help me... lol...I know I can do it. I'm actually looking forward to doing this. I will keep you all posted on how well I am doing ( or not doing). I wish you all a prosperous New Year! May the Lord keep you and bless you throughout the year and that all your endeavors be successful. Until next time peoples...

I just want all I do to glorify Him